yamanai ame da neeee

Monday, August 31, 2009

看日昇日落看月圓月缺年復一年的經過曾經我也那麼獨一無二
怕潮起潮落怕患得患失錯了又錯的疼痛終於我的生命只剩生存
活著只會呼吸吃飯喝水的生活

mayday
<3

2:53 AM

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

i've been so busy i haven't had time to even feel the busy-ness yet. does tt make sense?
finally when i tht that this weekend i can slack around abit. there's that trip....
omg.......... noooo why is it like that.

2:23 AM

Saturday, August 15, 2009

watching rovers selection is like watching taiwan drama.

2:39 AM

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

ahhhh sch starts tml......... altho i was kinda looking forward to it. but then thinking about the travelling... i don't feel like i wanna go to school already. and then there's the waking up :X
and i'm still here now. hahaha tml i DIE. liting, you die tml. rly.

anw i was thinking,
hmmm shld i change my blog's picture.

ah work was good. its really the people leh. srsly. its not about the day, or how much shit we get from the customers. or the amount of mistakes i made. or the number of times i got scolded. its really just the others on the floor that makes a good shift.

ah forgot. met celebs on monday. it was funnnn. suddenly it all seemed to become a no strings attached kinda thing. and to me, that doesnt mean no responsibilities.. ah i don't know how to describe. but it became.. light. haha. k forget it. but anw, i went hm with aixin for the last time. yap aixin its quite saddening. from now on no more trips hm tgt! kkkk oh well. after... hmm.. has it been 7 yrs. around there. aw.

2:38 AM

i am happyyyyyy
Friday, August 07, 2009

yesterday was an unbelivably good day!
met soooooooo many people omg.
the relief teachers in sn in the morning.. listening to shuxian's aussie stories. hahah
then met charissa xiaorong and matong later on with winnie. went to ion to walk walk.. haven't seen them in SO long. yay. we shld really meet up more often like srsly. this is not enoughhhhhhhhhh.
k then after that, work.
ytd's closing shift was damn fun!!! ok its not damn fun or what, but i actually had a happy shift, which is so rare. (or rather its the first time) met a new guy who turned out to be really nice. and got to know pamela better. yes maybe things are taking a turn for the better. i hope so. if this kinda shift will pop up once in awhile i could actually keep on working there... hmm

12:13 PM

Tuesday, August 04, 2009

i've been having strange dreams. WHOLE dreams, in which i can remember every detail and every person in it. and in the dream, i'm not actually conscious that i'm dreaming.
omg its actually very very freaky.
2 days i ago i dreamt that there's this big murder conspiracy going on and i was so freaked out cause i thought i was going to go to prison, and was thinking omg mama and daddy are gna kill me because they let me go to uni and blah only for it all to end like that. when i woke up i was SO relieved it wasn't real.
and then today i dreamt that i was going to aussie to study. i've applied, packed, done all the paper work, arranged for accomodation at melbourne, talked about money matters with my sister and was at the airport with all my winter clothes ready. and i woke up. thinking, WHAT why am i still on my bed, am i late for the plane?! then i realise im dreaming. when i fell back asleep i continued the dream ok... this time it was more disrupted, like im starting to find loopholes, like how my mum was commenting on how tiny my suitcase was. i opened it to realise i only brought clothes and nothing else. no shoes nothing. hahaha.. and i had to rush home to repack. omg. and i woke up damnnnnn confused, it took me awhile to remember how come im still on my bed.

and perhaps the most distinct feeling was... that lingering feeling of disappointment.
haha, maybe my dream was telling me something huh.

12:50 AM

Monday, August 03, 2009

ah the previous post was 555th hahah oh man
im so bored that i decided to come here in the end.
went ecp today!! cycleddddddd. wanted to go changi and that nice jetty but the osim run was in the way. aw. oh well nxt time! hmm it was a good day, windy and sunny.
winnie suffered under the grasps of the unforgiving uv rays while i basked in it.
haha poor girl.. hope you've recovered by the time you see this.

k after that we went to research tw trip. hmmm this is getting abit worrying.

truth be told. i've been worried alot this past few days.
i think i already know what i'm going to be doing in the end...
but i can't help but grovel round and round the problem.
if dread is the first thing that comes to mind, then maybe i shouldn't?
but i long to return to a life that is of some semblance to sn and ij days.
no idea. argh.

mune ni heavenly psycho ima wa mirai ni mukau
michi no tochuu da~~~
ryo <3

1:24 AM